I'll be the very first person to put my hand up and say that stress is the one thing that really gets me down. I think since doing my A-Levels stress has always been present academically but then also in my personal life there has always been something getting me stressed and then getting me down.
In the past I've let stress control me and take over my life. I've panicked so much during the day that even at night my heart won't stop racing and my mind won't stop making endless mental lists of what is still left to do. Or if my mind wants to give me a break it starts to spiral out of control and work out impossible scenarios of what is going to happen when I fail at whatever I'm stressing about. I do believe that so many of my past mental health problems have been linked to stress.
But then I watched Kelly McGonigal's lecture called How To Make Stress Your Friend and it's really made me rethink everything I thought I knew about stress. I think I've started to realise that the way I've been going on is not great. Thinking of stress as the enemy has allowed it to control my life; but by seeing stress as the motivator to rise to a challenge is something new to me. I need to start seeing stress as the boost of energy that gives me the push to motivate myself and to take up the courage to not back down.
Whilst I'm mulling over my new attitude to accepting stress I'm trying to be good to myself. Writing an assignment with my Drink Up face mask on and with a good cup of tea is balancing out my nerves. Other little treats are spurring me on to be kinder to myself and to not be so hard on everything I do. I treat myself to some flowers from the florists once a fortnight and inspired by The Grand Budapest Hotel I bought my first book by Stephan Zweig in a bid to give myself something to focus on when I'm trying to relax. I've let stress make me feel useless and insignificant so it's time to change that for good.